Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Here's to You- A slam poetry reading


Mornings are the worst. I wake up thinking about you in feverish dream fervor, but my dreams don't match up with real life because they're just a fantasy fiction of the mind.

And you live in reality, when I live in a world where nothing has changed.

Because my rarity of reality is the whole truth about a fraction of a faction of the lives we lead or the loves we lead-- on. The way you led me on.

You see, I live in a love or lust or indescribable feeling inspired hallucination of the mind which is why my dreams are when I'm happiest. When the real world is gone and everything is just right, just like it used to be.

It doesn’t matter that my dreams show me the darkest parts of a soul, of humanity, of death destruction and chaos and evil erupting behind the facade of a face. A face I try to make seem belongs in the real world when the real world is where my hellish delusions get inspiration.
 No, because my dreams also allow me to hold on to a piece of the old life, our old life, when dreams meant nothing and the real world was the only world that mattered.

When reality ruled supreme over love induced comas (or is it fear induced paralysis) because now, the dream is what I strive for:

to sleep is to love, to wake is to weep, to rise is no longer to shine but to move through the motions so that love or lust or indescribable feeling will follow in the small clandestine affairs when you step in front of my mind’s eye: In the safety of a dark room, on a darker bed, where I lay the darkest contents of my head.

So here's to you my drug. Here's to the nothing you left for me when, and to the everything I've created to keep you flowing through my veins, at any cost, so that

my fix                          my itch                                   my hit
can be got                  can be scratched                   can be took

In the deepest nook of the mind that expands exponentially, searching for the “we” that used to be, when eyelids fall-

Down.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Poetry, you slut


Poetry, you slut
Letting everyone divide
Your legs of meaning

Why must you always
Make me and surely others
Question what you say?

Might it be because
Like the others before you,
You feel emptiness?

Closed I lie waiting
For a love that I can share
Without dark secrets

Be with me here, now,
Don’t try to analyze this
Or you’ll just lose me.

Do you want my truth
Or am I just your conquest,
Forgotten once read?